&I love it just this way

2011-08-01T20:54:00.006+08:00

起初　相信愛的路　終點是指向幸福
才會一而再的選擇讓步
太固執而盲目　忘了停下來
心疼自己的無助

無辜　你拿手演出　終於我可以麻木
從這裡分割出兩個國度
揮霍多少時間　折磨多少痛苦
才累積出的領悟

忍住不哭　我要忍住不哭
望向天空不讓眼淚流出
抬頭看進雲深處　等待那日出
把故事結束　把從前一筆　消除
忍住不哭　我要忍住不哭
不能認輸因為我相信　彩虹總跟著薄霧
會帶來幸福　在下一個叉路
陪我跳全新的舞

something got into me tonight.

I went back to read the posts from the past..

& I wonder if you still remember what you have written in the past(:

Its okay, im fine.

i doubt you even rmb the existence of the shared blog (:

but maybe its a lie, maybe im not fine at all.

i feel like a fool, crying at what was lost.

those things that were said.. i guess they meant nothing but a lost piece from the distant past

I just need time to accept the change, to tune myself back into the reality.

I still love you, do you? (:

2010-12-05T00:51:00.003+08:00

Reaching for the stars that seem oh-so-far (:
and oh-so-difficult.
make me trust you better. help me to..
I want our relationship to shine for all to see,
and guide us heavenward one day.

2010-07-27T23:58:00.005+08:00

Conflicting emotions surging within.
i wanna screammmm.
It feels as if i owed you something.
I really dont like this feeling.

2010-07-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

eom.eom.eom.eom.eom.eom.eom.eom.

* GASPPPPPPPPPPPPS *
><

I have a problem with trusting.

2010-06-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

主你是我力量 (:

我的诗歌我的拯救
你是我患难中随时的帮助
众山怎样围绕耶路撒冷
你必围绕我到永远
主你是我力量
主你是我高台
坚固磐石我信靠你必不动摇
主你是我力量
主你是避难所
我的盼望只在乎你

Wheee yayyy the joy of the Lord is my strength! :D

I AM SO DEAD FOR BLOCKS ><
math tmr. And i just wasted a day studying A BIT of bio and slacking :/ whoooopos.
teehee i cant wait for blocks to end!
THEN CAN GO FOR HONEYMOON W DARDAR!
I was so touched by her blogpost! awwwwww (:
ME LOVE YOU TOO :D and i promise tt i'll cherish this dardar-ship! always and always (:
you're truly God-sent! hugggies (: JIAYOU FOR BLOCKS TOO!

OKAY BACK TO MATH :D
TOODLES (:

You're my Prince of peace and I will live my life for You (:

sighs. there's this thing thats been nibbling at the back of my mind. But it's comforting to know that God is in control of everythingg (: I will seek Your way, and not mine (:

2010-06-22T00:48:00.003+08:00

真实的悔改 (:

主你已救赎我们
招聚我们, 为你争战
主我们同心寻求
你的国度, 你的公义
求你赦免我们, 得罪了你
从今天起我们要顺服你旨意
主我们真实的悔改, 回转到你面前
求你赦免我们的罪, 洁净我们的心
主再次赐下你恩典, 再次赐下怜悯
求你塑造我们生命
为你而活, 一生讨你喜悦 (:

I'm coming back to the heart of worship, o Lord (:

2010-06-20T21:19:00.002+08:00

徐若瑄-爱笑的眼睛

如果不是那镜子
不像你不藏秘密
我还不肯相信
没有你我的笑更美丽

那天听你在电话里
略带抱歉的关心
我嘟的一声切的
比你说分手彻底

泪湿的衣洗干净
阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心
明天起只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异
我的笑她无法代替

离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天删去
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情
我一定让自己, 让自己决定

泪湿的衣洗干净
阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心
明天只和快乐出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤
如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替

离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流了泪
当一个人看旧电影
是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回我自己
那爱笑的眼睛
再见到你
我一定让自己让自己坚定

离开你我才发现自己
那爱笑的眼睛流过泪
像躲不过的暴风雨
淋湿的昨天忘记
离开你我才找回自己
那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情
我一定让自己让自己坚定

再见到你
我一定让自己假装很坚定

2010-06-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE!! I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH HER :D THIS IS CRAZY WAHHAHAHA :D

I AM THAT SOMEONE says:
you see.
boys.
are gorillas.
they are like this different species
weird gorillas
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHAHHAH
THIS IS FUNNY (:
can i post tt on my blog please?
ITS THE JOKE OF THE DAY
WAHHAHAHAHHAHAA
SUPER
FUNNY
EHHH
FROM TODAY ONWARDS
I THINK WE SHOULD NAME THEM LIKE GORILLA 1
GORILLA 2
AND GORILLA3
WHAHAHHAHAHA
I AM SOMEONE says:
HAHAHAH OMG
but that one
he is gozillakong
cause gorilla is too mild for him.
BLANK OUT MY NAME KAY ;D
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHHAHAHAH
I AM SOMEONE says:
Hhehehehehehehe
:D
magg (: keep the faith; says:
THIS IS HILARIOUS
OHMYTIANNNN
I LOL-ED
ZOMYTIAN
I AM THAT SOMEONE says:
yeah i know thankyou man
i'm so freaking awesome
magg (: keep the faith; says:
RLY RLY LAUGHED OUT LAUGH
I LOVE YOU ZOMTIANNN
HAHAHHAHAH
I AM THAT SOMEONE says:
sometimes i cant believe myself

EGO POK!
ITS OKAY! I STILL LOVE YOU! :D

2010-06-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

A time like this is the time that I feel most loved (:

Abi Carol Charisse Jung Mark Matt Matthew Shawn

Thanks for everything (:

You guys are God-sent <3

2010-06-11T21:29:00.002+08:00

I took a chance, I took a shot
You might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
& down here from the ground, I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run cover when you're around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, i remember what you said last night
And i know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

You could write a book on
How to ruin someone's perfect day
Well, i get so confused and frustrated
Forget what i'm trying to say

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run cover when you're around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, i remember what you said last night
And i know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why? Why? Tell me, why?

I take a step back, let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know
(:

2010-06-11T00:38:00.003+08:00

WHEEHEE I LOVE ABI AND SHAWN! :D
THEY ROCK :D
CAUSE THEY MADE MY DAY!
HAVENT LAUGHED SO MUCH AT MSN CONVOS FOR A LONGGGGGG TIME :D
HAHAHHAHA :D

shawn zorro in arkham says:
she looks a bit
old
:X
okay lah coming from me
haha
remember that time
the first day i met you mag
magg (: keep the faith; says:
hahhaha she's pretty (:
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
aiyos
shawn zorro in arkham says:
7th july 2008
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHHA YES
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
YOU PPL ARE CRAZY
magg (: keep the faith; says:
:D
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
HHAHAHAHHA
shawn zorro in arkham says:
liki's birthday party
i went with pearl to hans to get the cake
magg (: keep the faith; says:
WHY WHY :D
shawn zorro in arkham says:
ran into some NUS students
they said they were doing orientation
looking for ex nus students
are you an ex nus student?
then another one said
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAA
shawn zorro in arkham says:
"no lah look at him he's sec 2!"
-.-
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA
LOL
shawn zorro in arkham says:
then when i went THIMUN this year
shawn zorro in arkham says:
they thought i was 16
:X
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHHAHAHA
shawn zorro in arkham says:
but thimun this year was quite
freaky
did i tell you
magg (: keep the faith; says:
whut!
shawn zorro in arkham says:
i didnt?!
k heres the deal
tell me what my number is and i'll tell you what happened at thimun
;D
i cant remember any of the conversations you guys had about numbers anyway
so doesnt matter haha
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHHA OKAY LET ME TELL YOU MY NO.
I MEAN YOUR NO.
shawn zorro in arkham says:
you know what i mean arh
magg (: keep the faith; says:
9******4
:D
yeah
not lying
shawn zorro in arkham says:
whack you
magg (: keep the faith; says:
its a fact!
HAHHAHA
:D
shawn zorro in arkham says:
hmph
dont tell you
:(

~~

abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
OH OH
sorry i was distracted
THE NOW COUNCIL PRES
I HEARD VERY CUTE.
ANW WHAT WAHT
******* OMG
shawn zorro in arkham says:
hahahaha
you two
crazy
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
like you arent
seen any pretty girls around?
shawn zorro in arkham says:
hmm
well
how should i say this...
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
huh what
magg (: keep the faith; says:
WHO IS THE NOW COUNCIL PRES???
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
you shy to tell us we pretty is it
HAHAHHAHAH AMAG.
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHHAHAHHAHAHHA AYAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
shawn zorro in arkham says:
you guys too hopeful already lah
but yah
i got two very pretty triplet sisters
:D

~~

shawn zorro in arkham says:
what?
=<">= (this is a crab)
magg (: keep the faith; says:
HAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHHAHAHHAA
FUNNY BUNNY
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
IT LOOKS LIKE ******* IM KIDDING
magg (: keep the faith; says:
YOUR P3 SCIENCE PHAIL
CRABS HAVE 8 LEGS ):
hahahahhaa
shawn zorro in arkham says:
those not legs
hahaha
magg (: keep the faith; says:
then?
tails?
shawn zorro in arkham says:
uh
claws
:D
pincers
legs hidden
lol
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
*******'s hair):
shawn zorro in arkham says:
O:
abigail or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow; says:
YAY LET'S MOVE ON TO OTHER GOOD LOOKING CRABS
i mean guys.

I love us!
Evil triplets ftwwww :D
SHAMABI LOVEE!

2010-03-26T01:11:00.002+08:00

Guess what.. I never thought you will ever feel this way.
well it did cross my mind, but i stubbornly chose to ignore it instead.

What should i do now?
I cant stop the tears from rolling.
&my heart wrenches at every thought of how you could have hid it so well.

I'm sorry.

2010-03-24T23:21:00.005+08:00

Ahhh im in a crazily dreamy mood now (: (:
Its good cause i feel so relaxed (laxing-ed ?? hehh. )
But then again, its not tt good aft all cause its makes me not want to do work ><

Hmm..
Its amazing how i dont ever get sick of Salut d'Amour even when i put it on repeat on itunes. (:

& yes,
bring me back to the barre, where all other things wont matter.

2010-03-19T22:03:00.005+08:00

I just wanna laze around and dream till the end of time (:

2010-03-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

I. cant. breathe.

Many things happened just overnight.
And they arent the same anymore.

Bring me back to the barre, where other things wont matter.

2010-02-10T23:21:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOO WORLD IM BACKKKY :D

hahahha school has been soooooooooooooo fun! :D:D:D and slack-ness! its especially fun when you find friends who're as CRAZYYYYY as you are! HHAHA 10S73 ROCKKKKKKS SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH! :DDDD

wheee. im goingg a bit MADDDDD.

MAD MAD MADDEDDDD!

sighhs. but i miss xinruuuuuuuuuuuuu): ahhhhhhhh. in fact i miss the entire 4 deeeeee! CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! VISIT SN FTW :D

OKIES IM GOING OFF ALR! random random random like random gas particles of the brownian motion! wheeeee.

lalala!

2010-01-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

oooh yayy blogger is working ! (:

Saviour
He can move the mountains
For my God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

Yayyyy I am not afraid to face tmr cause I've got a Great, Big God who conquered the grave ! <3

Jesus, take the wheel(:

2010-01-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

test test.

( something seems to be wrong w blogger hmmmm. D: )

2009-12-12T00:42:00.001+08:00

Its not just about us.
If only things could be simpler...

annoyance

2009-12-11T01:16:00.002+08:00

Was i being too paranoid?
Do you miss me?
Do you really miss me?
I miss you so so so much...

you held on to her

2009-11-11T12:42:00.002+08:00

How can I tell?
How is it possible to tell?

Despite much reassurances,
I cant stop myself from being paranoid.

'Cause everyone had said the same.
& I have grown to understand the deeper truth.

2009-11-07T12:27:00.002+08:00

Wheeeee time flies!:D:D:D I simply cant believe tt im done with 2 weeks of O's<3

hahahhaha i CANT WAIT for POA(Post O's Activities)!<3333magg's gonna be a big big busy person right after O's! hahhaha literally RIGHT after O's! whoooots:D:D sufff must be feeling so honoured now rofllls:D:D

kaykayyys back to mugging phyyy!
toooodles<3

My God is a Great, Big God<3!

2009-10-09T21:22:00.002+08:00

Zomytiannnn. Horrible mood swings that I have D:

wowwwww. it seems like i have really overworked my tear glands these 2 days. hmmmm let me count.. on and off for 13 hours. Good job!(: heh.

I love meng I.N.G <3>& Sixian's bday video:D zomytiann. I've watched it countless times! and i cant stop the tears from flowing each time i re-watched the video. It simply characterizes everyone amazingly well-- from xuek laogong's retarted horizontal movements and wen's " E)-ness " to xinru's calm-ness:D ... my world would be incomplete without all four of you.

AND MS TEY'S PORTION IS EPICCCC! ZOMYTIAN ROFLS:DD
" ehhh, who's bday is it uhhh? *laughs*"
" MUST DO MATH OKAY! DEGREE IN MATH! MASTERS IN MATH!..." (& the list goes on.)

Zomytian i love ms tey!! im gonna miss her so much so much): ): ):

I simply cant suppress the sadness i feel at this moment. Its so... heart-wrenching. I dont ever want to leave stnics. I love my class. I love my cca. I love sncouncil. I love my teachers. I love orange bowl. & most of all, I love the sisterly love and SN spirit tts unique to st nics alone. I truly love SN so much so much.

Proud to be a SN girl! <3

2009-10-08T23:03:00.001+08:00

小鱼对大海说：“ 你感觉不到我的悲哀，因为你看不到我的眼泪。”

大海却回答：“ 我感觉到了你的悲哀，因为你的眼泪就在我心里。”

~~

也许海鸟和鱼相爱，就只是一场意外。

MAF(:

2009-10-03T23:33:00.003+08:00

Helloooo world:D

Hahah woww it has been a longggggggggg time since the last time i posted anything:p

All hail Mug-for-your-own-good!:D

Rofls yes, lets try to turn the whole school communist. zomytiannn i still find tt ambition utterly unbelievable and hilarious:p Thankfully alison didn have the same agenda to turn stnicks communist or anything of that sort after being titled council president!(: I LOVE EXCO 08-09<3!

wheee its mid autumn festival today! ahhah didn have any elaborated celebration this year, considering my family has been plagued with 2 major exams coming in a mere few weeks time (okay days for matt) :/ but we had steamboat for dinner nonetheless! yumms:D and zomytiann! the durian and raspberry mooncake ftwww<3

okayyy i shall go mug bio for the second time today:D JIAYOUUUU TO ALLL! <3333

once again, ALL HAIL MUG-FOR-YOUR-OWN-GOOD! :D

p.s. i love you(:

2009-09-13T19:56:00.005+08:00

lalallaa

DECLARATION #10125: MAG WILL START TO MUG FROM NOW ON.

NO MORE SLACKING FOR ME (AND YOU TOOO)!

WHEEE MUGGING FTWWW(:

wheee

p.s. you're probably right all along(: jiayouuuus<3!

2009-09-12T01:31:00.002+08:00

There're a million and one better soluions out there.
You will be fine, right?

2009-09-11T22:51:00.003+08:00

I was woken up by an unexpected phone call this morning.

BUT ZOMYTIANN IT DELIVERED A GREAT AND JOYOUS NEWS WHICH GOT ME HIGH FOR 12 HOURS NON-STOP! :D:D:D

SNCO'S HAVING A COMBINED CONCERT WITH HCICO <3! WHOOOOTS(:

Whoooohooo the dark blue badges will be playing a few pieces with snco!(: (: yayyy i simply cant wait for the madness pracs with my dearest juniors and comrades again <3!

& on top of that, the alumnae (which will be us, too!) will most probably be having a combined alumnae item with hcico alumnae! :D:D:D coooolness right! wheeeeeee(: (: hahaha but hopefully it wont involve the vicious water guns or flour bags this time! (: hmmm actually you know what.. To come to think about it, the water guns and flour bags arent that bad either(: they're quite funnnn actually heee:p

ohhh yayyyyy!:D:D that'll one more thing tt i can look forward to from now till the end of o's! whoooohooooo(:

HIGHS!:D

2009-09-07T08:54:00.002+08:00

Zomytiannn Im super EXCITED!:D having mugging session with lovelaye palpatintopians later!
( with secret clause operation spoon/fork and candles<3anwww, the probability of spoon, fork or candles seeing this is 0.00000000000001. :D so its pretty safe! hahaha(:

ohyess! ame's super cute with her new hair style nowww:D and rofls the super funnaye thing that she said ytd is still ringing in my head:p

Ame: Ehhh your bro (mickey!) dirtied my hairband ! (points at korkor. )

Us: hahhah, oh no what did he do!? o.O (musing if mickey ever decided to play mischief by stepping on it or even flushing it down the toilet bowl)

Ame: HAIYA HE WORE IT LA!><

- BURST OUT LAUGHING:D -

hahaha my meimeis are soooo cute!:D

okayyy got to go off for piano noww! toooodles! <3

p.s. LOLS XIAN YOU GOT ME OBSSESSED WITH DBSK ZOMYTIAN<3!

Unfrozen

2009-09-05T21:12:00.001+08:00

unfrozen. how could it possibly be.

random:D

2009-09-05T14:03:00.003+08:00

Hellooo world! :D

Im super high now wheeeee!(: heh cant figure out why though:p reading xian+xinru+yujia+ching ultimate siaoness and lameness convo could be one big contributing factor rofls!:D whoooots it feels like 4dee's alive once more hahhaha(:

Ahhhh i really miss 梦-ing a lot a lot ): ): i miss the crazy times when all 5 of us had unlawful gatherings at the balcony, talking about everything under the sun and making unrealistic dreams which seemed so surreal. ha we must have them again after o's kays! and im not forgetting about our band practices, not this one at least:D OH YES. AND THE ENGRAVED THINGYYY<3!

oh yes, did i mention tt my memory's imba?

"After his second London visit from 1974-1975, Haydn headed back to Venice..."

epic win.

:D

POO POO POOP. I LOVE SUF.

2009-09-03T13:06:00.000+08:00

LOLS IM AT SUFANG'S HOUSE NOWWWW
NEH NI NEH NI POO POO
DONT BE JEALOUS KAY!

TSKKK YOU KNOW THATS NOTTTTT ME
YES YES MAG I AM
NNOOOOO ITS SUFANG COME ON
BOOB
IDIOT
POO P
POO
POOP.

ANYONE WHO READS THIS WILL KNOW TT ITS SOOOOO NOT MAGGGGGG
HIPPOPOTAMUS
POO
POO
POOP.

LAMENESS :o
CRAZYYY WOOOOF.

POO
POO
PAPAYA POOP.

YOU ARE SPAMMING ON MY WINDOW YOU MADDDEDDDD!
POO
POO
I DONT CARE POOP

OKAYYYY THANKS FOR WATCHING

I AM OBAMA
!!!!!

ERM, I MEAN CHANNEL I LOVE MAG MORE TH6Y876T7

POOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

I LOVE SUFANG
SHE'S THE BEST
SHE BEATS THE REST
COS SHE HAS NO FATS
HAHAHHAHAHAHA
AND SHE HAS PACKS!!!!

POO
POOP
POO

-.-, OKAY WHERE WAS I? OH YES.
TH
AN SU
F:D

BYEEEE
TOO
ODL
EE
E
AS

WERHIAHFJAGJSHFSJHJKDFHJKSF
POO.

exciting:D

2009-08-27T19:21:00.003+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
Stupid propagandas ><
I need to see more sense in the things we are made to memorise.

Oh wells, on a happier note, the Palpatintopians are meeting up for dinner tmr! :D:D
whheee its so exciting and i simply cant wait! lalala(: seeing them brings me back to happier times when disruptive things like O's didnt quite matter at all. haha and its undeniable that this bunch of equally insane people do cheer me up a lot(:

Frankly, it caught me in a dilemma while contemplating whether to turn up or not, considering the fact that im still in the midst of prelims. but guess what! I shall compromise by mugging before that and by mugging intensely during the weekends!:D yeppps its a promise(:

oh yes! and the worship training on sunday! should be funnnnnnn:D yayyyys(:

okayyy, back to SS, tooodles!<3

hanhao you die.

2009-08-22T23:12:00.004+08:00

Whyy am I worried for the wrong matters at such an inappropriate time.
Urgggggghhh.
would you pleaseeeeeeeeeee stop making life difficult for my lil dearrs.
I'm so sorry we're soooo not used to it, cause never in my 4 years in sn have i been taught that such things are ever necessary.
come on, be flexible and be rational.
AND HOW ARE WE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF YOU!><
scoffs.

Its not what you think.

2009-08-19T21:57:00.003+08:00

Just what can I say, and what can I do
to tell you that they're all untruths.

Look, I give up. Its so much harder than I thought it could possibly be.

tell me its not another broken promise.

2009-08-16T19:39:00.004+08:00

Zomytian. 2 days.

Okay i know its just a mere 20%. Yet, you know how much difference it can make. Not to mention how much complications it may bring by the end of the day.

Okay this is really bad--the fact that im getting all fidgety and to some extent, desperate about it-- and im fully aware of it. Hence, i made a decision a while ago.

" Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
& lean not on your own understanding.
Acknowledge Him in all your ways,
& He will make your path straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6

Its amazing how this verse literally jerked me out of my panicky state of mind this afternoon. Trust me, it was completely random and unexpected, but it came timely:D & thereafter, i felt a sense of comfort i have not felt in a long time.

My God is AMAZING!<3

2009-08-15T18:10:00.005+08:00

你的心有一道墙, 但我发现一扇窗.
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙, 我的爱会攀上窗台盛放

2009-08-14T20:49:00.003+08:00

But if i let you go,
i will never know
what my life would be holding you close to me.
Will I ever see you smiling back at me.
How would i know?
If I let you go. (:

4diligence'09 <3

2009-08-13T17:23:00.002+08:00

This great affinity is simply unfathomable,
&I really wonder if its something worth celebrating for.
Convince me that it could be different this time. (:

2009-08-10T11:22:00.004+08:00

It took me quite a while to realise its merely a chemical reaction in the brain,
A result of phenylethylamine and nothing more.

2009-08-09T22:46:00.003+08:00

Looking back, its bittersweet.
Maybe this is just how far it should go.
Thank you. (:

2009-08-08T22:29:00.002+08:00

I refuse to think about it anymore.
As you wish.

2009-08-07T21:58:00.004+08:00

National day celebration this morning was a lot of self-entertainment, zi-highing and camwhoring:D hahaha these were the little things that made the whole event a lil more bearable. ohwells(:

following was an outing with bestie! hahahhah that cheered me up a lot(: thankkies! & who said you cant rock with the piano!! oh yesss!! I was (and i still am) highly amused and awed by the piano version of gada! ahahhaha:D:D:D not to mention how every piece seems to be able to link or end with the 'amitabha' tune! LOLS:D the whole aftnoon was spent with lots of 21st century stravinsky-s, impressive moonlight sonatas, contorted community songs, improvised rachmaninov and shockingly dissonant chords which worked wonders to dull pieces!(: trust me, tt was a highly effective antidepressant(: i havent had soooo much fun in a longgggggg time:D:D

& im in love with DBSK nowww:D:D hahahhahaha! i think xian and xinru totally brainwashed me la(: (: hopefully they will win the lawsuit againt SM entertainment(: hahaha and its amazing how xian can go on and on about the details of this lawsuit for the entire bio lesson rofls:D:D! I'll be there is super nice! its turning into an obsession:D

hahhaha okkk, back to work! tooodles!<3

그래요 그댈 두고서 난 아무데도 못 가죠
But you know it wouldnt quite matter anymore.

breaking point.

2009-07-31T22:50:00.004+08:00

It came as a heavy blow, overwhelming and insuppressible.

2009-07-24T21:10:00.003+08:00

Wheee shuang introduced this new song to me a few days ago and i've been obsessed with it since hahhas:D the lyrics is somewhat close to heart too(:

那年夏天(:

长大以后现在的我常常会寂寞
偶尔缱绻星星闪烁剩最亮一颗
往事如风划过夜空你的歌
跳动音符熟悉旋律谁来合

长大以后现在的我忘记了快乐
人来人去留在身边的朋友不多
那些天真纯纯的笑哪去了
洁白翅膀美丽天使不见了

曾经以为世界很美
没人流眼泪
吹熄蜡烛许个心愿
全都会实现
原来的我怀念从前
是因为太留恋
懵懂的岁月中
只收藏了简单的笑脸

我愿相信时间倒退记忆的最美
合起双手闭上双眼再许下心愿
在某一天回到从前
让他们都出现但他们没改变
让时钟停在那年的夏天

the lyric's so sweeet right:D rofls! its soooo addictive we simply cant stop humming its tune during class!:p hahaha and dong would shoot us that look occasionally and start laughing almost immediately after:D

btww, 梦-ing totally made my day todayy(: &ahma too haha(: thankyou dears!<33

look, thats enough. dont be too much. you still dont get it, do you? for the last time, the world doesnt just revolve around you alone.

2009-07-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

Ahhhs i went back to CO today:D it feels so good to be back in the oh-so-familiar music room(: (: & my heart melts once again at the sight of the smiles so dear. somehow, they never fail to touch me with the same warmth each time i meet them. It was so overwhelming that i actually teared a lil:p haha hopefully no one noticed that:p

& its comforting to know that nothing has changed since-- the incessant chatters, liulaoshi's teases which i've bet he's never ever gonna be sick of, the huge mess at daji area, and even the way the shoes have hazardously positioned themselves across the floor (as most will claim). (: and ohmytian the " SNCO GWH FTW<3!" which i so conveniently scribbled on music room's white board in a moment of highness is stillllll there!:D:D hahah can you believe it!! its still there aft like what, 4 months?:D lols!

hahah sock and i went to photocopy the new 飞天 scores for each instru just now!:D we were soooper excited cause its 飞天 zomygosh!:D:D:D the thought of snco playing 飞天 is getting me abnormally highhhhh! whheeeeho:D:D guess whattt! we actually spent 2 whole hours, if not more, trying to sort them out and have them nicely stapled:p faintness(: but who cares as long as snco gets to play it<3! hahhah but still.. i can fully understand why yuqi always have the =.= expression whenever we get new sets of scores lols(:

oooh and liulaoshi made the 2 of us play 月儿高 and 菊花台 with them:D:D i was so unprepared la, didnt even bring my pipa nails hee:p OH OH OH! and ohman i nearly died high-ing while sightreading 菊花台 cause its sooooooooooooooooo nice AHHHHHHH:DD *hyperventilates* hahahha i think i totally went hysterical after the song ended:D its so unfair! how come all these nice songs only start streaming their way into snco after the blue badges stepped down!:D:D

I seriously cant wait to resume co prac aft o's and start preparing for snco's concert whoooooots!:D:D tell me its still on prettypretty pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee. who cares abt influenza A or PRIME! they're so discourteously turning our lifes upside down anyway>< well wells.

with all my heart and all my soul i say,

I LOVE SNCO<3! :D

will you cut it out please, its driving me crazy.

2009-07-19T23:12:00.003+08:00

Helllooo world!

You know what, Armrest Nazi is totally hot. &erm, sweeet. ohmann(: I'm in love once more<3 lols!

hahahha and im seriously boreddddd. but most people arent online and i wonder whyyyD: oh wells, mugging period of the year. That explains it all actually:D:D

and duett! You have 3 more mins. loook. THREE mins more to get off that maple thingyy there. hahhahah:D its noooot good la(: wheee people should seriously consider reading some fanfics or, erm watch one piece for a change rofls:D tskkk, dont give me that look cause one piece is really funnaye and engaging in a wayyy(: lalala luffy just makes me laugh. erm like luffy = laughyy:D:D !

HAHAHA okayys THREE MINS is reducing to THIRTY SECONDS fast and im going to sound the nudge button really soon:D how come no one realises that time can be oxidising agents too, since they reduced themselves all the time:D

hahhaha see, i told you i was bored.

kayys tooodles!:D

I love you dears<3!

2009-07-18T22:04:00.023+08:00

Ohmytian! I discovered 2 more genius-es today LOLS:D

GENIUS #001 -- NG LIKI

lookk! its seriously much more than just a girl with 2 ponytails running!It says S-N-C-O! OHMY OHMY SOOOO COOOL RIGHT:DDD ULTIMATE COOOLNESS<3!

GENIUS #002 -- TAN YUSONG

hahahaha! This other girl in a prettayee dress says M-a-g-g! whoooootos!:D:D Ahhhhh soooo genius righttt! (:

See i told you they are genius-es!:D:D:D It will probably take me a million years to come up with such coool stuff!:p

fyi, its blatantly obvious. but I guess i'll just take it with a pinch of salt.

P.S. Hellloooo duett!!! here's your lil dedication for the day:D hahahaha i simply cant wait for pianoduet after o's!! its going to be superrr fun and coool yeahh<3! yayyness(:

I AM RETIRED.

2009-07-17T20:46:00.009+08:00

I AM RETIRED!:D

ohmy i cant wait to tell the whole world that(:(: To think it was actually delayed for 3 whole weeks due to unforeseen circumstances, on top of H1N1. Greattt. & we didnt get to show the video still>< BTWW MY PIPA SECTION ROCKS!!<3Jiayou jiayou dearest yuting and xinling! Im soo proud of you dears:D:D:D

Oooh and i promised TOHJIAYUN to mention her in my first post cause she contributed pretty much to the existence of this blog! hahah and i already did!:D:D Gosh its amazing how she tackled with all the html errors like simple math sums and guess what, they really did look like foreign particles to me. Who on the Great Green Earth knows what XML entities are! Hahhaha okayy TOHJIAYUN does(: thats why i say she's a genius!(: whoooops or is it just me. okay whatever, it doesnt quite matter:D:D

& ahhhhh i want to watch ballet under the stars with xinru! how could we have forgotten all about it): we mustttttt catch Swan Lake by hoook or by crook yeahh! :D:D i simply cant waittt! oh and did i mention, 梦-ing is the love<3

Armrest Nazi ftwww(:

P.S. Get well soon dear! Influenza A is no match for you! (: &cheer up kayys, dont be gloomy anymore(: perservere on and dont give up! wheeehoooo all the wayy(:(:

ohmytiansoexciting! :D

2009-07-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

testttttt(: